Rising into...

I always wondered what will be the toughest part in my life... I thought it will be the board exams, I cleared them; I had thought it will be the engineering days, I got through them; I thought it will be the campuses, no I had hit the bulls eye there...
It had to be this. It had to be that. Somewhere the logic goes for a toss, the heart says accept the brain argues. The reason and the reality don’t match. I was there, standing speechless, asking myself why did I answer the phone call? wonder why did I talk? wondering where did i loose the control? where did i agreed to walk ? thinking of what changed me? thinking was I really conscious thinking about all this? was i prepared for it?
No I wasn't. I shaked. I tremored. not with fear of failure but with excitement of realism. I was scared. It was real. I was standing... I looked... it was brilliant, it was radiant... it was blinding... it was soothing... it was completing...
I didn't knew whether I was alive.... but I wanted to stay... to know... to rise...